It's weird what you miss. I didn't think I'd miss anything. I knew I wouldn't miss anybody - that's too much emotional effort and I've wasted too much of my life on missing people already, I don't know to continue. I knew I'd miss my Mother, I don't yet but I will in a couple of weeks perhaps and I feel bad saying that because I know she misses me but I just don't miss people, period - she's the only possible exception to that rule. I guess I miss my cats in a way, I'm with them 90% of the time I am at home. They're gorgeous, fluffy, warm, they have the most relaxing purrs, they're company, the perfect size, the know my mood - they really are the best companions. My Mother and my cats, that's it.
I miss objects that I never thought I would, things that never crossed my mind that I would miss. I miss low ceilings, fry-ups, I miss being able to walk place, Jack Daniels, my jobs and working, chicken, the gym. English adverts, our bath tub, driving on the left, British accents, Dave (the channel), our record player, Orion (I can't find him here), Cadbury's, insults (Americans just don't insult like us Brits do), the colours on our notes, Aquafresh, terraced housing.
I'll admit, it's an odd list of things and I've probably missed a bunch out but you get the picture. I used to think I hated England and everything about it and it's not that I haven't been there for five weeks that I'm starting to realise how decent it actually is. I mean, I love America but England is something special. I guess my point is you should appreciate what you have while you have it and you shouldn't take anything for granted. Yawn, how cliché, right? But seriously, people would tell me I'd miss England and I never believed them because, in all honestly, it is pretty shit. But that's it! I miss it's shitness and how it wears it with pride. The Brits are those that say. 'yes, it's a shithole, but it's our shithole. I dare you to say something.' It's not that I can't wait to get back to England because I can, but when I get there I will be pleased and I will appreciate everything a lot more than I did when I left.
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